" Let us leave behind sadness regrets and painful moments and have a new start full of joy this New Year."
I don't know about you but 2013 was one heck of a year for me. Every so often I think it's important for us all to have life reviews. Looking at what you've achieved and what you want to achieve in the short, medium and long term, your hopes and dreams as well as your fears.
This was a tough year emotionally. The forces around me did not help me get to my goal. In fact I gained some weight back. Being an emotional eater does not help my weight loss goals when I have so much stress. But who does not have stress in their life? This is something that this year I am willing to work at a little harder. Stress does not mean we need to turn to food, it means that I need to be more in control of my body. I am planning to work on my feelings so I will not turn to food.
This past year I learned that I have a solid marriage. No matter how much opposition and hurt people put Dean and I through, they won't brake us. I have the greatest respect and love for my sweet husband. He is an amazing man, with a heart of gold. The world may judge him, but at the end of the day I know the real Dean! He is always welling to turn the other cheek even when he has been betrayed by those who claim to be his family! I am glad we found each other and that our love was sealed for eternity.
Facebook has been a real blessing in my life. I am able to connect with so many family members all over the world. Also I have had the opportunity to meet wonderful people through my page "Fat talk. Losing 300 Pounds". I have now over 10,000 followers that at times have lift me up when I have felt like giving up. I have received so many beautiful heart felt messages, but at the same time I have also received some that are not so nice. Some people think just because they follow me a week or two on my weight loss journey, that they know me! and they pass judgement on me and think that they have the right to do it!. However I know if I am doing something right I will always have opposition!so I might be doing something right! If I can give hope to one morbidly obese person somewhere out there, my mission is complete.
Being back in university has been a real challenge for me. Specially when I am much older than some of the students. Some of these students can be my children!!lol. Getting my brain to work and my mind to think again has been tough. I find myself lost in campus and pretending to look like I know where I am going, but I know slowly I will get the hag of it!! I know with Determination, Persistence and Patience I can accomplish anything.
As most of you know I believe that with out God we are nothing! We need him in our lives. This past year I learned to exercise my faith. When I can't change a situation the best thing to do is leave my worries at the Savior feet! but that itself is hard. So many times I leave my worries at his feet and few days later I take them back. I need to learn to trust him and that is something I will work on this New Year.
This little furry friend continues to fill my life with so much joy and never ending love. He brings laughter, fun, wet kisses and tears to my life. I am so thankful for him. I see how the simplest things bring him joy. He is my anti depressant. When ever I feel down all I have to do is hug him and I feel better. He continues to be my ray of sunshine. I am so glad Dean rescued him.
My new goals for this new year are to love more, endure more, be thankful more. Have more determination, patience. And focus on my weight loss.
What are your goals for 2014?