A Bitter Sweet Moment



" A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself"

 Showing my 100 pound token, beside my beloved Diego.

 Besides my husband,  Diego was my best friend and the son I never had. He helped me to loose my first 95 pounds. He was my number one fan!.
Two weeks ago to be exact February 23 my life changed forever and, my heart was broken when my precious little Diego passed away suddenly. I never thought I was going to get to my 100 pound loss with out my little furry friend. On Saturday February 26 I got on the scale and low and behold I had reached my first 100  pounds loss. I couldn't believe it,  since it was one of the hardest weeks of my life. I remember exercising and crying, feeling like I had a hole in my heart. I pushed myself so much since I did not wanted to disappoint my little friend. 
On the morning of February 23, when I kissed my Diego good bye for the last time,. I promised him that I was going to continue in this weight loss journey. So when I was told that I had lost 6.7 pounds and reached my first 100 pounds I was filled with emotions of happiness and sadness. It was a bitter sweet moment for me  since I always thought of celebrating this day with my precious 2 boys. My husband and my puppy.
Tears of joy and sadness filled my eyes and in a way I felt like Diego was there with me running around and saying " You did it Marjorie!".

A bitter sweet moment to received my first 100 pounds and not having Diego there.

I feel so bless to have so many friends and family helping me with my weight loss journey. So many kind people have given me  gifts, hugs, kind words  and keep cheering me  up along this journey. So many have cried seeing how I have slowly lost my first 100 pounds.  To those people, and you know who you are "Thank You"

Here are few cards and gifts that I received.

Another beautiful gift.

An awsome gift from my niece, nephew and Sister in law

 Getting  all these gifts is better than my birthday.

My beautiful ring, a gift from my husband.

I have always said that some day I am going to get my wings back so I can fly again, so that is why my sweet husband gave me this butterfly ring.
I will like to dedicate this posting to my precious Diego. Life will never be the same without you. . Thank you my little boy for helping me loose my first 95 pounds.
 I will miss you every day of my life! Puppy heaven is a sweeter place because you are in it.
God be with you until we meet again.

"Families are forever"
December 2011. Our last family picture.





My Personal Trainer

"My World Is Expanding As My Butt is Shrinking"

I invite Bob Harper into my living room every day.  He is my personal trainer. Even when my body tells me, I can not do it, Bob pushes me to my limit and just when I think I can not longer continue, Bob reminds me that "It suppose to feel uncomfortable"!. so I keep pushing myself until I am done my workout. When I am done, I feel so alive and feel that I am in control of my body and that I am slaying the DRAGON!
(I refer to the Dragon when I talk about my fat). The are so many reasons why we should all take the time to exercise.

Here are few reasons why you should exercise and invite Bob to your living room;

1.  Enhanced memory concentration.
2. Reduce stress and anxiety level.
3. Breath better.
4. More energy.
5. Muscle tone.
6. Better sleep.
7. Loose weight.
8. Joy.
9. Self-esteem.
10. Self worth.
11.  A "Me Time.

Lemon and Water my two new best friends!



" The only way to keep your health is to eat what don't you want, drink what you don't like and do what you'd rather not"





Have you had your lemon water today?



  I have found that when I drink few glasses of lemon water a day, I feel so much better. Here are few reasons why you should drink lemon water.

• Lemons are antibacterial.
• Lemons help you loose weight.
• Lemon water can help with digestion, heartburn and bloating.
• Lemon water can cleanse and revitalize the liver and kidneys.
• Lemon juice contains calcium, magnesium and potassium and can cleanse the skin.
• Hot Lemon water can relive cold and flu symptoms and provide Vitamin C.

When was the last time you had a glass of lemon water?

That was then ... This is now

    "Success will come when you stop dieting and start living"



The picture on the left was taken June 2010. The picture on the right was taken January 27 2011.


I feel like a million dollars!!!  I am feeling better and better as I loose the weight. I Keep on dreaming and believing that someday I will be able to do so many things that I can not do right now such as: climb a mountain, go swimming, ride a bike, go camping, go shopping all day, and simply  have my life back:(.. As of today Saturday February 5 I have lost 85 pounds!!! I can not wait to get to my first 100 pounds.



My Weight Loss Journey



"You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love & affection."

Picture taken on December 2010.  I had lost 70 pounds in this picture.

 

I started this blog to help those that walk in my shoes. To give hope
and encouragement to those that have felt that they need their wings back to fly again. And to those that just need to know that is never to late to change your lifestyle for the better. If I can do it so can you.
For as long as I can remember I've struggled with my weight. I started to gain weight when I was very young. This is where my  weight  gain journey started. I had low self-esteem and it was because of my body.   I remember when I was about 10 years old my grandmother coming to our house and telling my mother that I had to go on a diet because I was just way to fat. She used to say

" Look at your arms they are just so big for your age!". I remember my mother put me on a diet of one orange and one egg per meal. I remember being so hungry and I was made fun of because sometimes I would eat 2 eggs and 2 oranges... and I was told. " You will never loose the weight if you keep eating 2 eggs and 2 oranges.
Throughout high school I continued to gain weight and peaked at 170 pounds (pretty big for being 5’3”). And from there I kept gaining the weight. In 1988 I joined Weight Watchers and I lost 30 pounds, but I did not do it because I wanted to.  I did it because I wanted to feel accepted by my dad. I remember it was shortly before his birthday and I asked my mother what he would like for his birthday and she say to me. “ If you want to give your dad the best birthday gift, loose some weight.” So I decided to join Weight Watchers to make him happy. So in reality I did not do this for me I did it to gained acceptance and love. I have always known that I am Heavenly Father's daughter and that I am beautiful in his eyes and that I am special...but I have never felt beautiful so I have let my self go. What I mean is that I have continued to gain weight to the point that I was not able to carry my body any more.I know I am God's girl! And he wants the best for me... with that being said back in August I had felt that I was at the end of my journey. I could not longer carry my big body... my poor feet could not longer carry all the extra fat that I have been carrying for so long. So I felt that I was dying slowly. My biggest fear was to have my husband find me dead! Yet this fear that I had for so long, did not give me the courage to start a healthy lifestyle or do anything about my weight. I did not know how to begin or where to begin,a healthy lifestyle, all I knew was that I just could not continue living the way I was. The fat had taken over my life!

On August 31 2010 I decided to changed my life!.. And I have not look back since that day. I want to let the world know that " I Marjorie is in charge now"!! and nothing, is going to stop me!