Jealous Of My Success?

"What are stumbling blocks and defeat before you, can be stepping stones to victory if you remain determined. "

When I started on my weight loss journey nine months ago, I never thought that I would be experiencing jealousy from people that I thought they were friends. For the most part people are happy for me but there are a lot of people that have treated me different and have been very jealous of my success. I have always believed that people who get jealous when others succeed are really selfish. I feel that now that I have lost almost 125 pounds people are different toward me and according to some is a competion between us. I never set out to compete against anyone. All I want is to loose the weight that has taken over my body and have a happy, healthy life.

Now that I am healthier I feel like I have found my voice in this world and I am more confident and I have a positive outlook on life. Perhaps to others I have changed and in some way I have, since I walk a little taller and I am not afraid to go out in public anymore.

Through this weight loss journey I have learn that there are lot’s of jealous people out there even the ones I thought they were my true friends. But I have to say the more jealous they are the bigger my driving force is to continue to beat this fat and be healthy and beautiful. I will love to tell them all…. “BRING IT ON”. Nothing will break me!

To all those readers that are planning to loose a significant amount of weight be ready to face Jealousy! . What is jealousy? According to the dictionary, the word jealous means “resentful and envious, as of someone’s success, achievements, advantages”

Have you experienced Jealousy?

" Feeling Like a Princess, on my Wedding Day"

   "We are all born worthy. Worthy of love, worthy of success"

For long as I can remember I have never felt beautiful, until the day I got married to my best friend. I remember feeling like a princess and for the first time looking in the mirror and finding myself beautiful!. Through the years I have felt ugly and not of worth. Being ashamed of my body has made me feel worthless and unwanted. Since I started this weight loss journey I have felt of worth and beautiful.
I remember when I was younger there was a lady that used to walk around downtown wearing a big, bright cape around her neck, that read " LET ME BE FREE". So many times I feel like wearing a cape that would read " LET ME BE FREE, I HAVE LOSS 123 POUNDS AND GOING STRONG…PLEASE DON’T JUDGE ME”. So many times people (strangers) have to ruin my day. I see them looking at me like I am some weird creature or someone out of this planet., and then they don't stop there they talk about me and some even laugh at me! My inner Marjorie always reminds me that, I am of infinite worth and to not let people of that nature define who I am. They don't know me and at the end of the day, the one person by my side is my sweet and caring husband that has loved me no matter what size I have been or will be. So don’t let others define who you are. I have learned this lesson the hard way.
 Do what is best for you. If  people don't take the opportunity to get to know you because of your size, or how you look, it is simply their loss. I have to keep reminding myself that I am of infinite worth and so are you.

HEALTHY BODY... HAPPY HEART!

"Determination today leads to sucess tomorrow"

Here are some smart tips that have helped me with my weight loss.

•  Plan your grocery shopping.
•  If you know you have a busy day, plan ahead
•   If you’re headed to a party, munch on a healthy snack first.
•  Brush your teeth after every

 meal. This will send a clear signal to your brain that the meal is over.

•  Make sure to get enough sleep. Being over tired ca be a trigger for snacking and over eating.
• Eat until you feel satisfied not until you feel stuffed
•  Use Vegetable and Chicken broth instead of butter or oil.
•  Don’t multitask while you eat. Pay attention and enjoy the food you take in.
• When sitting down at a restaurant start the meal with a glass of water.
• Wait  15 minutes to eat something you think you want to eat. If you still thinkinng about it 15 minutes later, you really want it, other wise it was a passinng urge.

" The science behind weight loss is simple. You need to burn more calories than you take in."

A Major Milestone

"My path has not been determined. I shall have more experiences and pass many more milestones"

For the first time in my life I went to a walking track. I never imgined in my life that I would actually walk 5 times around a track. For most people this is no big deal.  But  for me, it's a major milestone. There was a time, no too long ago when I could  barely  walk a block without feeling that I was going to die. The inner Marjorie

 reminds me how important is to have a healthy body and that I can do anything if I really believe it! In the other hand my "human Marjorie" whispered in my ear, "I was not going to be able to go around the track not even one time because I am so obese".  As I was walking around the track, I saw so many people passing me and I felt like I was left behind and felt like a real looser. This feeling took over my entire body. I started to question if my legs would be able to carry my big body around the track. I almost quit walking but the inner Marjorie kept pushing me to continue going and remind me how proud she is of me. As of April 9, I have lost a total of 113 pounds.  When I thought about this accomplishment I wanted to shout from the top of my lungs, "I CAN DO THIS AND NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME!!!"

Eight months ago, I made up my mind that I am in control of my body and that I am going to beat this obesity.



 Moose Jaw Walking Track

 Walking on a track may not be exciting right now, but it is a good way for me to determine how fast I can walk and how far.  Most people using the track are passionate walkers and runners and they all seemed so serious about what they are doing. On the other hand have to remind myself that as long as I am moving I am doing something right. And I need to use my body to the best of my ability.

 Have you thought about going to the track today?.

Celebrating my Birthday and Shaping the New Me!

"When it comes to eating right and exercising, there is no "I’ll start tomorrow." Tomorrow is disease.



Celebrating my Birthday the healthy way!

 I am  learning about how important a healthy lifestyle is it is crucial to make sure that I do not throw this knowledge away because  I am celebrating my Birthday which in my eyes, is a very special occasion. In fact, a special occasion seems to warrant treating one’s self better not worse. And, in reality when one eats poorly, one is not treating one’s self well. This year I decided to celebrate my Birthday as healthy as I could. I had asked my mother in law to bake me a healthy, yummy cake. I wanted to be able to enjoy a piece of cake with out worrying about how many calories I was eating. I searched  high and low for the perfect recipe. And guess what?..I found it.
This year my Birthday was very different from past years. I had a healthy salad, lemon water and a healthy piece of cake!.. and a positive attitude towards my body.  I felt very proud of myself to be able to continue being focus even when it was my Birthday. I have made up my mind that I am not able to take holidays from this healthy lifestyle!
I found my Birthday cake so yummy that I would like to share this recipe with everyone. So here it is. Get yourself a pen and paper so you can write down and make it for your Birthday!. Enjoy:)

Angel Lush

 You will need:

• 1 pkg.(4 serving size) Jello-O Vanilla Fat Free Instand Pudding.
• 1 can (398 ml) crushed pineapple in juice, undrained.
• 1 cup thawed Cool Whip 95% Fat Free Whipped Topping
• 1 store-bought angel food cake (284g)
• 10 big fresh strawberries.

Make it:
Mix dry pudding mix and pineapple in  medium bowl. Gently stir in whipped topping
Cut cake horizontally into three layers. Place bottom cake layer, cut side up, on serving plate; top with one third of the pudding mixture. Repeat layers two times.
Refrigerate at least 1 hour. Top with strawberries just before serving.
 Preparation time: 15 minutes. Total time: 1 hr 15 min. Makes: 10 Servings.

 After eating a piece of this cake you will not feel guilty!

Calories:130  Total Fat:1.5g  Fibre:1g  Protein: 2g

"Those who think they have no time for healthy eating, will sooner or later have to find time for illness.”



A Bitter Sweet Moment



" A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself"

 Showing my 100 pound token, beside my beloved Diego.

 Besides my husband,  Diego was my best friend and the son I never had. He helped me to loose my first 95 pounds. He was my number one fan!.
Two weeks ago to be exact February 23 my life changed forever and, my heart was broken when my precious little Diego passed away suddenly. I never thought I was going to get to my 100 pound loss with out my little furry friend. On Saturday February 26 I got on the scale and low and behold I had reached my first 100  pounds loss. I couldn't believe it,  since it was one of the hardest weeks of my life. I remember exercising and crying, feeling like I had a hole in my heart. I pushed myself so much since I did not wanted to disappoint my little friend. 
On the morning of February 23, when I kissed my Diego good bye for the last time,. I promised him that I was going to continue in this weight loss journey. So when I was told that I had lost 6.7 pounds and reached my first 100 pounds I was filled with emotions of happiness and sadness. It was a bitter sweet moment for me  since I always thought of celebrating this day with my precious 2 boys. My husband and my puppy.
Tears of joy and sadness filled my eyes and in a way I felt like Diego was there with me running around and saying " You did it Marjorie!".

A bitter sweet moment to received my first 100 pounds and not having Diego there.

I feel so bless to have so many friends and family helping me with my weight loss journey. So many kind people have given me  gifts, hugs, kind words  and keep cheering me  up along this journey. So many have cried seeing how I have slowly lost my first 100 pounds.  To those people, and you know who you are "Thank You"

Here are few cards and gifts that I received.

Another beautiful gift.

An awsome gift from my niece, nephew and Sister in law

 Getting  all these gifts is better than my birthday.

My beautiful ring, a gift from my husband.

I have always said that some day I am going to get my wings back so I can fly again, so that is why my sweet husband gave me this butterfly ring.
I will like to dedicate this posting to my precious Diego. Life will never be the same without you. . Thank you my little boy for helping me loose my first 95 pounds.
 I will miss you every day of my life! Puppy heaven is a sweeter place because you are in it.
God be with you until we meet again.

"Families are forever"
December 2011. Our last family picture.





My Personal Trainer

"My World Is Expanding As My Butt is Shrinking"

I invite Bob Harper into my living room every day.  He is my personal trainer. Even when my body tells me, I can not do it, Bob pushes me to my limit and just when I think I can not longer continue, Bob reminds me that "It suppose to feel uncomfortable"!. so I keep pushing myself until I am done my workout. When I am done, I feel so alive and feel that I am in control of my body and that I am slaying the DRAGON!
(I refer to the Dragon when I talk about my fat). The are so many reasons why we should all take the time to exercise.

Here are few reasons why you should exercise and invite Bob to your living room;

1.  Enhanced memory concentration.
2. Reduce stress and anxiety level.
3. Breath better.
4. More energy.
5. Muscle tone.
6. Better sleep.
7. Loose weight.
8. Joy.
9. Self-esteem.
10. Self worth.
11.  A "Me Time.

Lemon and Water my two new best friends!



" The only way to keep your health is to eat what don't you want, drink what you don't like and do what you'd rather not"





Have you had your lemon water today?



  I have found that when I drink few glasses of lemon water a day, I feel so much better. Here are few reasons why you should drink lemon water.

• Lemons are antibacterial.
• Lemons help you loose weight.
• Lemon water can help with digestion, heartburn and bloating.
• Lemon water can cleanse and revitalize the liver and kidneys.
• Lemon juice contains calcium, magnesium and potassium and can cleanse the skin.
• Hot Lemon water can relive cold and flu symptoms and provide Vitamin C.

When was the last time you had a glass of lemon water?

That was then ... This is now

    "Success will come when you stop dieting and start living"



The picture on the left was taken June 2010. The picture on the right was taken January 27 2011.


I feel like a million dollars!!!  I am feeling better and better as I loose the weight. I Keep on dreaming and believing that someday I will be able to do so many things that I can not do right now such as: climb a mountain, go swimming, ride a bike, go camping, go shopping all day, and simply  have my life back:(.. As of today Saturday February 5 I have lost 85 pounds!!! I can not wait to get to my first 100 pounds.



My Weight Loss Journey



"You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love & affection."

Picture taken on December 2010.  I had lost 70 pounds in this picture.

 

I started this blog to help those that walk in my shoes. To give hope
and encouragement to those that have felt that they need their wings back to fly again. And to those that just need to know that is never to late to change your lifestyle for the better. If I can do it so can you.
For as long as I can remember I've struggled with my weight. I started to gain weight when I was very young. This is where my  weight  gain journey started. I had low self-esteem and it was because of my body.   I remember when I was about 10 years old my grandmother coming to our house and telling my mother that I had to go on a diet because I was just way to fat. She used to say

" Look at your arms they are just so big for your age!". I remember my mother put me on a diet of one orange and one egg per meal. I remember being so hungry and I was made fun of because sometimes I would eat 2 eggs and 2 oranges... and I was told. " You will never loose the weight if you keep eating 2 eggs and 2 oranges.
Throughout high school I continued to gain weight and peaked at 170 pounds (pretty big for being 5’3”). And from there I kept gaining the weight. In 1988 I joined Weight Watchers and I lost 30 pounds, but I did not do it because I wanted to.  I did it because I wanted to feel accepted by my dad. I remember it was shortly before his birthday and I asked my mother what he would like for his birthday and she say to me. “ If you want to give your dad the best birthday gift, loose some weight.” So I decided to join Weight Watchers to make him happy. So in reality I did not do this for me I did it to gained acceptance and love. I have always known that I am Heavenly Father's daughter and that I am beautiful in his eyes and that I am special...but I have never felt beautiful so I have let my self go. What I mean is that I have continued to gain weight to the point that I was not able to carry my body any more.I know I am God's girl! And he wants the best for me... with that being said back in August I had felt that I was at the end of my journey. I could not longer carry my big body... my poor feet could not longer carry all the extra fat that I have been carrying for so long. So I felt that I was dying slowly. My biggest fear was to have my husband find me dead! Yet this fear that I had for so long, did not give me the courage to start a healthy lifestyle or do anything about my weight. I did not know how to begin or where to begin,a healthy lifestyle, all I knew was that I just could not continue living the way I was. The fat had taken over my life!

On August 31 2010 I decided to changed my life!.. And I have not look back since that day. I want to let the world know that " I Marjorie is in charge now"!! and nothing, is going to stop me!